It’s a funny thing, that emotion. It feels sinister and makes me panic and I grab blankets or chocolate or search the room wildly for busywork. Like someone’s got a gun to my head. I. have. got. to. get. this. done. I say through focused scary brain because I’m afraid to look up from what …
“Do you ever feel like a complete failure?” And you go to answer it and instead you “accidentally” call them. And you say, “what’s going on?” and you really mean….what just happened with the phone?……but you hear the person’s voice on the other end and then you realize……. Oh. “What’s going on?” means something entirely …
I lay here in the middle of my night and I have this sense of urgency; of heightened perspective. It’s already a new day. It’ll soon be a new year. This thought keeps coming to mind. Nothing matters but the eternal I want to grab onto you, grab onto myself and say it in the mirror….. …
“Sameness is tameness” D.B. Estep I heard that today and it ricocheted around in my brain as I sat there quiet in a bible class. I have moments like that frequently. Like a shot in the sky that makes me stop and I can’t move past what it does inside of me. I look around …
I’d woken up at 3 am., something that keeps happening as of late. I used to fret. Now I just pray and ponder. Or write. 🙂 I grabbed my phone and saw 23 notifications from Facebook. I decided I’d catch up on that office work. Then, I posted. A random, worthless post about being awake. …